autism – Page 3

Lunchbox

Today I forgot Johnny’s lunchbox and it’s been a day. Yesterday was an amazing day. We went to a nearby farm for their pumpkin patch and other fall activities. Johnny did amazing. He watched a magic show and laughed hysterically, he interacted with us, picked a pumpkin, and played with his cousins. Of course, afterContinue reading “Lunchbox”

Why I Cry

To my little boy, You probably know by now, but your mom is a crier. I cry a lot. I cry when embarrassed, when frustrated, when sad, even when I’m happy. I have cried for you many times. I remember crying on the car ride home when you cried in the corner the whole timeContinue reading “Why I Cry”

Support, Love, Friendship

Being a parent to an autistic child can be lonely and isolating. When I’m somewhere with Johnny, all my attention is on him. Off in a corner just him and I. Even when I’m in social situations on my own, it’s lonely because most people cannot relate. Or maybe it’s because I can’t relate. MyContinue reading “Support, Love, Friendship”

Before We Knew

Pictures, pictures, and more pictures. I’ve been taking pictures since I was nine and my parents bought me a camera for my birthday. This was before smartphones and the craze of capturing every moment. I love it. Sometimes after the exhausting bedtime routine I lay in bed and stare at pictures of my kids. Yes,Continue reading “Before We Knew”

You Need to Calm Down

Yesterday I decided we needed to get out for one last summer weekend. Take a chance with masks, and take a chance with the world. Going out is never simple. Johnny’s mood, my mood, his little sister’s mood, are all factors. Johnny is the hardest, he finds the world hard. It’s uncomfortable and unpredictable. WeContinue reading “You Need to Calm Down”

Goodbye Normal

Normal. Such a funny thing. When I say our life is not, I’ll hear back “Who really is normal?” or “What is normal?”. I get everyone is different but when it comes down it, there is a such thing as normal. In some ways we are normal, but in many ways not and haven’t beenContinue reading “Goodbye Normal”