motherhood

I Wanted to Say “This Is Hard”: A Story About Autism, Isolation, and Motherhood

There’s a small moment from years ago that has always stuck with me. Even now, it makes me feel sad and a little guilty. But I also think it perfectly captures where I was in my journey through motherhood at the time. My husband and I had taken our kids—our son, about five, and ourContinue reading “I Wanted to Say “This Is Hard”: A Story About Autism, Isolation, and Motherhood”

Anxiety Is Like a Little Monster

Let’s talk about anxiety for a minute. Not just anxiety, but anxiety and motherhood. I’ve had anxiety my whole life. I just didn’t realize what it really was until I had my children. It’s tangled up in so many other emotions like, guilt, grief, sorrow, anger, etc. It wraps around and is the reason forContinue reading “Anxiety Is Like a Little Monster”

Love’s Limits: Saying Goodbye to Having More Children

The plan was always to have two children, but after I had my two beautiful babies, I couldn’t help but dream of having just one more. Although we couldn’t know whether it would be a boy or a girl, in my gut and dreams, I saw a baby boy. We decided if he did comeContinue reading “Love’s Limits: Saying Goodbye to Having More Children”